So i def. have been MIA for quite sometime, and i am deeply sorry... Things got a little rough... So i will do a really quick update... I got e coli and was hospitalized for a week.. come to find out my chemo caused the ecoli... still continued the chemo.. a month later ended up having a bacterial blood infection caused by my port, had my port removed... and a new one placed.... come to find out the chemo is no longer working... and so today i signed papers to do this clinical trial chemo in hopes that it will shrink the tumors, or stop the growth of the tumors.. It hasnt been tested on humans just been tested in the labs... so we will see how this works for 2months and if nessecary we have one more option... and that would be to go back to the chemo i had when i was 10.. which caused me to be sick and loose my hair.. but if thats what must happen to beat this again then so be it.. im ready.. and im going in with the positive attitude that this chemo (clinical trial) is going to work...

So thats just a little update on me... I will try n post more frequently now that im not going to be going back n forth to the dr. office...

so day 2 of chemo is over....... I feel ok.... just really weak.... Not liking this.... i knew it was gonn abe rough... but gosh day 2 and feeling like this....... can't bee to good........ im still in AMAZING spirits and stuff......

Found out that my "guy friend" is going to have to go back home. ( Las Vegas).... can't say im the happiest about it...... but i completely understand  y.......... and no Preston im not letting that effect me too much~!

so time to go lay in bed and watch NCSI (if i make it through it...)

So the day is here........ chemo starts in just a few hrs.~! I have it everyday for 2 weeks and then off for 2 weeks........ I got my port placed on the 15th and chemo starts on today~! I will update when i get back~!